The 32 bus pulls over at the corner of Alexandra Road. I step down onto the damp, familiar paving stones which shimmer in the pale early evening light. I usually hate the rain, but tonight I don’t even think to take out the half-broken Jaeger umbrella nana bought me a few Christmases ago. I spent all afternoon doing everything I could to get rid of the nauseous feeling triggered by the incident with Mr Heath – I relabelled the china with the new hospice branded price stickers Mrs Rodgers ordered in, dusted the ornaments several times and even chatted to some of the elderly customers. But now as I approach my house, disarmed by tiredness, I feel the thoughts that I tried to push away during the afternoon begin to resurface.
'How’s your day
been, dear?’ nana says, smiling as she hobbles out into the hallway with her
apron on.
'Oh, nothing special' I say in a monotone, dropping my Dior handbag
on the tiled floor in the hallway and nudging it under the stairs with my foot,
as I begin to peel off my sodden jacket.
'Something will come your way soon'. I look up and she nods her head and smiles at me.
'I
hope so' I say as I begin to climb the stairs.
I collapse onto my bed with a loud sigh, turning over onto my
back to stare at the white ceiling. It becomes a kind of a projection canvas which my thoughts
flicker upon.
I see
Nev and I walking along Alexandra Road under the cherry blossom trees on a warm
late April day. I see my
college self. I am walking up the steps to the stage to collect a joint award
with my friend Josie for the category of Dress Designer of the Year at the college
fashion awards ceremony. I hear our names announced and the cheers from the crowd. I hear Francis Jacobs tells me 'You know you’ve got so
much potential. You should be looking to get yourself into one of the
graduate training programs with Valentino or McQueen'. I remember the confidence
that night gave me. Then I remember nana’s
voice on the phone at the start of my final semester: 'Can you come home dear, as we need to talk to you about something?' She didn’t
sound like herself.
I swing my legs
around onto the floor and raise my body into a sitting position on the edge of
the bed. I reach over to the dressing table and pick up a photograph. The
photograph is of a woman in her late forties. She is sitting in a French cafe. She
is smiling and her thick, brown hair shines in the sunlight. This is how I like to remember
her, not as the gaunt woman in the pink headscarf. 'If only I still had you here to talk to, mum' I say, as tears fill my eyes.
Hey, Tom, this is great. Love the direction you've taken it in. The introduction of loss as a possible explanation for Becca's spikiness and maybe even her derision towards old people. Can't wait to see where it goes next!
ReplyDeleteNice work, Tom. I like how you broadened the story and possible characters in just a few paragraphs.
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